My life consists of a little bit of everything i've struggled with cutting and i have an anxiety disorder.. i really want to lose weight. i'm 5' 7 or 5' 8, i dont really know.
-more exercise
-less food
-determination
SW: 140
HW: 142
LW: 131.8
CW: 133
G1: 136
G2: 133
G3: 130
G4: 127
G5: 124
G6: 120
UGW: 115 or when I'm happy.
ashley benson is my thinspiration.
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look at all the kids in the circle. look how they look, some are laughing, some are smiling, but they look like they are enjoying themselves.
then look over in the top right corner. do you see that girl standing over there all alone? do you know why? she has an anxiety disorder.
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i dont really know why im posting this…that girl is me and this picture was taken two 1/2 years ago on my tenth grade music trip. i didnt know it was taken until after we got home and i saw it on fb but it just made me realize something.
this picture is pretty much a representation of my whole sophomore year. me looking in from the outside at everyone else enjoying their life and having fun, doing what 16 years olds should do. i couldnt do this however, because i have an anxiety disorder. 
i remember trying to go to birthday parties, and not being able to sit in the room with my friends, i just couldnt, id start overheating and feeling nauseous and dizzy. 
i spent countless days in the school nurses office for multiple class periods because i just couldnt enter the room. i remember one time i was sitting there and my face got so red and i was overheating and sweating and had the awful feeling in the pit of my stomach, and i looked down and my hand and it was shaking, i felt like everyone was looking at me and whispering about me and i literally just got up and walked into the hallway and burst into tears. this was an everyday occurrence.
the one time on the risers in chorus i started having an anxiety attack and my teacher singled me out, “are you okay?” and EVERYONE FUCKING TURNED TO LOOK AT ME. i took one look around and was like” omg everyones looking at me,” and i started crying there on the risers for no reason.
i missed out on all the sweet sixteens, the dances, the teen clubs, the dinners, i just sat in my room on my laptop (thank god for tumblr) 
the feelings of constant anxiety- i remember not being able to eat, and the feeling of worry every night making it insanely hard to sleep, this caused me to develop depression which also lead to self harm. 
eventually, when things got really bad and i started getting intrusive and suicidal thoughts, my mom finally (after months of telling me my anxiety was just a phase) took me to a therapist and i got help. it was there that i got diagnosed with depression and generalized anxiety disorder.things have gotten much better since then. i still struggle with self harm and my anxiety is still there, but things are better. but ive realized how much positive thinking actually helps in situations like this, honestly that (along with months of treatment & CBT) is what got me through this. when you try to be positive in your lowest situations, amazing things happen because you have changed your whole mindset. i try to take things day by day and see what happens because whatever is supposed to happen will. 

i wrote this because i want people who suffer from anxiety disorders like mine to know that no matter how bad things get, they will get better. you cant change what happens to you, but you can change what you do about it, and you can try to cause something good to come out of it. if you ever need someone shoot me a message. i promise to be here for you.

look at all the kids in the circle. look how they look, some are laughing, some are smiling, but they look like they are enjoying themselves.

then look over in the top right corner. do you see that girl standing over there all alone? do you know why? she has an anxiety disorder.

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"The years between eighteen and twenty-eight are the hardest, psychologically. It’s then you realize this is make or break, you no longer have the excuse of youth, and it is time to become an adult – but you are not ready." — Helen Mirren (via chasseurseul)

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royalxantoinettexblue:

eating chocolate does not trigger migraine headaches,
eating DARK chocolate reduces the risk of heart disease and cancer.
eating chocolate does not give someone acne or other skin eruptions,
eating DARK chocolate boosts one’s appetite, but does not cause weight gain,
eating moderate amounts of chocolate makes one live almost a year longer,
eating MILK chocolate releases endorphins in the brain, which act as pain-relievers,
the sugar in MILK chocolate may reduce stress, and have calming and pain relieving effect,
eating ANY chocolate makes you feel better after a Dementor attack.

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1st-ave:

royalxantoinettexblue:

  • eating chocolate does not trigger migraine headaches,
  • eating DARK chocolate reduces the risk of heart disease and cancer.
  • eating chocolate does not give someone acne or other skin eruptions,
  • eating DARK chocolate boosts one’s appetite, but does not cause weight gain,
  • eating moderate amounts of chocolate makes one live almost a year longer,
  • eating MILK chocolate releases endorphins in the brain, which act as pain-relievers,
  • the sugar in MILK chocolate may reduce stress, and have calming and pain relieving effect,
  • eating ANY chocolate makes you feel better after a Dementor attack.

reblogging for the last fact

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